Random Conclusions I Reached This Weekend

1. Yet another thing I'm bothered by when it comes to religion is the implication that if it was not God who created the universe, the universe and its existence is somehow less beautiful. First off, I am bothered by the sheer fact that way too many religious folks can't even conceive of the fact that the universe might've came to be simply out of sheer accident. Read Chaos: Making a New Science by Gleick and you'll see that oftentimes order manifests itself in the strangest places, in circumstances that start off chaotic and then find some sorta of rhythm. To me, this is just as likely (or unlikely) and logical an explanation as "some sort of pre-existent being created the universe." And if the universe DID in fact come to be out of sheer randomness, some fluke, some order emerging from chaos, this doesn't reduce the beauty of the universe to me. This in fact makes it seem all the more beautiful--that something as complicated as this could've arrived out of all that chaos and that it could've developed to where it is now. Seems utterly miraculous.

2. I want to leave my thumb print on the world before I die. I understand that we're ALL leaving our thumb prints everyday, through the people we touch and come into contact with. But I have this urge to do it in a more immortal, sustaining sorta way. And it's not because of pride. It's just because I value the web of art and science and math that the universe is composed of. And I want to contribute to it in some sorta substantial way, not to have my name remembered, but to have something live on that was once a part of me. And have it reach people again and again, the way films, books, mathemathical discoveries, etc. do. I want to be a little glimmering thread in the huge web of the universe. And I don't want that thread broken just because I'm no longer around.

3. People I would like to belatedly add on to my harem-list:

Jack White (again, mostly for the crooning);

Vincent D'Onofrio.

4. FAMOUS PEOPLE I'M ALLOWED TO SLEEP WITH REGARDLESS OF WHETHER OR NOT I'M DATING SOMEONE:
1. Julian Casablancas from the Strokes;
2. Jason Lee;
3. Angelina Jolie;
4. Dave Eggers;
5. ______________.

5. I have more vivid and easy to remember dreams when I go to bed slightly tanked. Examples from this weekend--I dreamt about (and this is just a small fraction of the dreams I actually had):

Kittens with mutations--one had flippers for arms and the other had a mutated eye;

Dave shaving off his moustache;

Being reunited with some high school friends at a fake prom/masquerade where I dressed up Goth for no apparent reason;

Kissing a co-worker;

Shopping for X-mas cards that were on sale;

Traveling to Chicago with Maura, Lynds, and Eleven;

Shitting in metal bowl over my aunt's house because her toilet wasn't working.

Random Items I Acquired This Weekend:
1. A folding table and chairs--something that I never would've sought out by myself, but now that I have it is coming in handy quite a bit.
2. A package from my sister containing a present for each year that I've been alive--I am only allowed to open one a day and so far the gifts have been Cookie Monster Bath Foam and a mixed tape. I don't know if i can control myself with the rest. Heh heh.
3. A beautiful day's worth of sun and springtime weather on Friday--I spent almost all day sitting out in the sun and reading.

Random Question of the Day:
Who should be my #5?
(I'm leaning towards this fella right now:)

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