I kind of like that people are scared of me.

Once in a while it can start to get you down, like when you realize that barely anyone at work, for example, talks to you because (as it's been for the past three decades of your life) they're not quite sure what to make of you--whether you'll bite their heads off in one solid snap or not--and thus find you intimidating. *couANNgh* That can kind of get to you once in a while (though it helps weed out the folks you want to have around anyways, I suppose).

But more often than not, I kinda dig it. Especially that moment when you realize someone's a bit afraid of you, that divine moment when you catch that deer-in-headlights sidelong glance thrown your way, when they stumble over their words nervously or start to act skittish, that moment where you suddenly know with absolute and undeniable certainty that if you were to lean over and whisper BOO, they'd shit their pants just a little. That's a powerful moment.

It kinda makes you tingle just a little... You know... Down *there*.

This is precisely why I think I need to make a career shift.

So if you see any job-listings on Craigslist for a "dominatrix," you best pass that shit along.

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